I need a vacation

Monday morning again....and here I sit, looking out the window at snow on the ground (in May) and I'm wondering how things got to be this way.  The kids are doing well, the house is fine, but I just feel empty.  I don't want to go to work, I don't want to come home...I need to get out of here and disappear for a while....I should be happy, I deserve to be happy.  I'm a good person but karma sure isn't working out for me.  But off I trod, working another day for a paycheque that doesn't begin to cover the bills. It's time to start thinking about my future, but right now I can't even see it,